For those of you who know me, you know I’ve been suffering from Fibromyalgia like symptoms for a few years now. It’s a crappy thing to deal with, to say the least. To give you an idea of what it feels like think about the last time you got a vaccine. Do you remember getting a shot in your shoulder and you get that deep ache afterward? It’s like deep muscle soreness but not exactly.
That is what I have been experiencing in my shoulders, hips, feet, and lats for over two years now. Not fun! I’m not writing this to complain. I’m writing this as a sort of message to myself and hopefully an encouragement to each of you. I was recently reading the bible and I stumbled on a couple verses that are extremely encouraging for me.
Psalm 55:22 Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.
Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
My Fears About This Pain
I’m a very active person. As I write this post, both my legs are bouncing underneath the table. I love almost any sport and if I could, I would play a sport or do an activity every day. With my passion for being active, this disease or ailment can be a big hindrance to being active.
But I think what is more of a hindrance is my fear. My fear of the pain or what could be. When I live out of this attitude I hesitate to take action. It prevents me from going for the run, hike, or playing a sport. I fear that this disease will eventually be more severe. But what good does it do for me to worry about these things? I’m seeing doctors, taking medications, and still staying active.
Through all of this, I am learning to “cast my cares on the Lord” and realize this is a helpful life lesson for me. This is an opportunity for me to trust God with what is happening to my body. As Isaiah 41:10 says, I will not be dismayed.
My Hope About this Pain
God is with me through this. He has always been with me. I think the amazing thing about this disease is how it has turned my focus to Jesus. On what he is trying to teach me and show me. I do have hope that this pain will go away. I do pray that it will go away. And I ask that you would pray too. If it does, I will shout from the rooftops the miracle of this healing.
But if my pain doesn’t go away, I know I can always lean into him through this, he has been strengthening me all along. Why would that change? It won’t. I can be certain of this. So despite the uncertain future with this pain and frustrating disease, I am certain that God is with me through it. I am certain that he is teaching me through this as well. Hopefully, these lessons will be helpful for you too.
What’s Your Fear or Pain
If you’re reading this, you likely have something in your life that is causing you pain or something that is creating fear. Maybe, like me, you have physical pain. Maybe you lost someone recently. Or you have major changes coming in your life that create fear and worry. No matter what your fear or pain, there’s hope to be found deep within that pain and fear.
If I’ve learned anything about this thing going on with me, it’s that I need to lean into it. I need to lean into what is going on, listen to what God is showing me and telling me through the pain. My hope is that you can lean into whatever you are going through and find God’s still small voice.
Like the verses above say, you don’t have to be afraid or dismayed, God is with you and he will strengthen you.
On the mornings that I experience the most pain and frustration from this, I lean the hardest into God. I pray the longest and deepest, I draw the closest. It’s hard to say this, but maybe my pain and fears, your pain and fears, are what will draw us closer to God and this is exactly what he wants.